Now that I think back to the last 4 months, I can’t get over the amount of bullshit I put myself through. I started dating her February 18th and broke up with her May 29th. In between those four months I had some of the best and worst times of my life. I got to go out with what I thought was one of the most amazing girls in the world, a lot of people disliked her, said terrible things about her, and terrible things that she either did or does. I always doubted them or stood up for her saying that it wasn’t true. I never understood why everyone wanted me to break up with her but now I know why, people didn’t want to see my heart get broken, which it did. The first time I started to believe these people was when she cheated on me with a kid by the name of Nathan Julian (some fag from montville or some shit) I found out she cheated on me when my mom wanted to meet this “Amazing” girl I’ve met and couldn’t stop talking about . I brought her to a expensive Chinese restaurant, then to the movies to see “The Vow” (She went to see the Vow a week or 2 earlier where she cheated on me… Again, with my fucking neighbor) I noticed she was texting her close friend. These were the texts
H- “I’m watching the vow with Austin right now”
N- ” Nathan and Adam sloppy seconds? Lolol”
I didn’t want to say anything due to the denial and nervousness (me and this girl have been dating for about a months or 2 now) before this she couldn’t even say “I love you” to me. It seemed like she only liked my dog. I asked her friend the next day in school, What was the Nathan thing about? She told me that this girl invited Nathan over her friends house where they hooked up and he unstrapped her bra and she asked if he wanted a blow job, I will never know the full story due to the unfaithfulness and dishonesty in this girl. I was going to break up with her but I loved her so much I gave her another chance. Our relationship seemed stronger but I couldn’t trust her (I still didn’t know that she cheated on me with my neighbor yet, I’ll end up finding out about a month or 2 from now) Her friend was also very attached to my GF and she wouldn’t let me hangout with her so I would get stuck on the weekends by myself a lot. My GF also would barge into my work expecting me to hangout with her when I’m working luckily my mom is the boss so therefore I didn’t get fired.
Now it’s 420 and of course she has to fit in by smoking pot ( I tried pot about 3 years before I met her and she kinda gave me shit about it, whatever) so I let her but didn’t really approve. My neighbor (the one she cheated on me with) told me that she was all over this little shit bag named Bert, also that she liked some black kid named Darnell and saw some pics of his dick. I’m starting to get fed up but gave her another chance. Now at this point I think she just did whatever she wanted knowing I wouldn’t break up with her because I always would give her another chance. So you can see here that she doesn’t love me at all, I bought her shit and gave her so much, the only thing I got out of this was sex (her fucking friend also told her that I only dated her for sex which was untrue) . Then more rumors started that she was cheating on me again. Then Nathan came back into the story, Nathan’s ex was messaging me telling me that my girlfriend was talking to Nathan saying that they were on the phone talking about her breaking up with me and getting back together with Nathan. So I was pissed and was on the verge of breaking up with her, so she goes ahead and sends me a picture of her wrist cut and bleeding. This really fucking pissed me off she did this so I wouldn’t leave, that is what made me want to leave even more, but I stayed again.
3 weeks later she wanted to hangout and I said let’s go to the beach on Friday, she said ok. Friday rolls around and she said she was going to the carnival with her friends I said ok. I’m with my friends that afternoon and my best friend got a call from what of our close female friends saying that she’s seeing my girlfriend all over another guy. I’m beyond pissed and fed up, I texted her saying “I think we need to break up” she calls me and give the phone to good old Nathan fuckin Julian. He’s telling me she’s going to cheat on me and I said ” she’s not worth it you can have her” and that’s how it ended, I said things that I shouldn’t of, she said things she shouldn’t of said. She wants to get back together but I’ve tried way to much and given her way to many chances. Shes already flirting with other guys. And she thinks it will be better this time but it won’t I have lost just about all respect for you. It’s over. You fucked it up. I’m sorry. And of course I bought her a fucking chocolate milkshake the other day, god when will grow some balls to just say fuck off you cheating bitch
trying to forget austin but for some reason he just keeps coming back. i wish i could forget him as easy as he forgot me.. awkies..
Please just shut the fuck up. YOU CHEATED ON ME ITS FUCKING OVER. I honestly loved you, but you just took a knife and shoved it right up the asshole of this relationship. I gave you so much, but apparently I wasn’t good enough. If you wanted to hook up with other guys.., WHY THE FUCK DIDN’T YOU JUST BREAKUP WITH ME INSTEAD OF BEING A BITCH AND FUCKING CHEAT ON ME. FFFFFFFFFFFFUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU
You have said this so many fucking times. Stop promising me shit you can’t live up to.